Lost and Unbalanced

I have been feeling rather lost and unbalanced lately.  It happens to me, every now and again.  So, in an attempt to give myself a purpose, for the next bit anywho, I have done something I've been meaning to do for some time.

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The Power Of Music

For as long as I can remember, I have always had a very strong love/hate relationship with music.  There were times, growing up, that the only way my folks knew I was home, was when they heard music coming from my bedroom.  I would lock myself away for hours on end, doing nothing, but listening to music. It does have a hold on me, still to this day, and I don't think that I understand why.

Most of the time, what I gather from a song, is not at all the intention of the person writing it.  Take the song Beth, by Kiss for instance, a powerful ballad about a musician on the road, and a loved one longing for his return.  Hearing that song growing up, made me cry and it was sort of a let down, to learn, there never really was a Beth, it was just a song. 


Recently, I had the privilege, to take in some live music with a friend.  During the set intermission, the modern jukebox began to play Creep, by Radiohead, and I instantly got a lump in my throat.  I turned to my friend, and admitted the song chocked me up, as there have been many times, when I was that person,  sitting in front of someone wishing I was special enough to be noticed.

Wearing this black hat, really doesn't make my draw to music any different.  I have to admit tho, I have found very few Pagan Artists tolerable. Instead, during candle magick or times when I need to get grounded, I usually put on nature sounds.  At least, I know for sure that nature is real, and I am not attracted to a song about a sandwich.